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so yeah im back again after erms more than 3 years? heh i guess at this point in my life there's really nothing more i have left to look forward to than that date and me moving on to the next phase in my life. so what can i say? welcome to misery

i left this blog 3 years ago. 2 months after i got together with my exgf cos i pretty much realised that life isnt that bad afterall. and here i am back here again 3 months after ive broken up with her realising that life is pretty fucking shit afterall. so here i go again, reliving my past. awesome.

to clar: so now you say that if i asked to patch right after i broke things off with you, you would have done so. but honestly after what you had done to me, do you really think at that point in time i would be in the right state of mind to make a sound decision? my mind was lost and my soul was in a state of panic. and do u really expect me to forgive you and accept you back right off when i found out about the dark secret you've been hiding from me? please, im human afterall =.= now that i've had time to think through things and finally make a proper decision you're telling me its too late. if i could forgive you for what you did to me what is it that i had done that u wouldnt forgive me for? you say you cant imagine us starting over after what happened but imo its your fear of getting hurt again stopping you from doing it. but what i really cant swallow is that you dont even wanna TRY. to me, at least if we tried and failed we know that at least we did your best to make things work but things just arent meant to be. but the fact that you wont even dare to TRY. you say that you dont see me to be the one cos of the fact i'll be going overseas to study for such a long time but honestly ask yourself this. on the first day we got together did u ever imagine us making it this far? 3 years is not a joke. you prolly didnt see us going this far either so the thing is you really wouldnt know what might or might not happen unless you're willing to TRY. maybe what they say is true. its because of other reasons and not that. its really ironic how you say you're not with him now etc but if you really have nothing to hide then why do you have to go to the extent of blocking me off completely from your facebook page lol, kua zhang bodoh. all in all im just disappointed it had to end this way. i'd rather a million other way we end rather than to this. honestly from the bottom of my heart, it was the last thing i would have expected from someone like you.

so how's life been for me? suppering my weekdays away! food therapy is always the best therapy. ippudo on thursday! love how the pork belly melts in your mouth <3